Immature

     So, I just finished reading my past posts. And whoah. I was immature. :)) I didn't know how to handle things before, but I hope I do now. Gaah. I still couldn't believe it was all my writing all of those posts. Well, some posts weren't immature, but still. Gaah. I've seen so many grammatical errors in those posts. :Grammar Nazi: I don't really hate myself for writing all of those things. Besides, I was just letting it all out here on my blog. But, gaah. Seriously. LOL. I don't know what I really feel right now. I mean, should I be ashamed? Mad? Laugh at myself? TROLOLOL. I still can't believe it. :))


     Anyway, college life is near. :O I really do hope I won't be immature as I was before. Gaah. It will be hard. I have like 29 units to finish, so I must study hard. Why did I even pick Physical Therapy as my course? Why didn't I pick an easy course? Guess that's what life is all about. There is no loopholes. One must endure it all throughout so we can become what we ought to be. Damn. I hope I will find good friends in college. My sister, even my dad, told me that college will be a competition. College will be the life where you have your friends as competitors. It won't be easy for anybody since it's all a competition.

     I promise myself not to be immature and I also promise to be studious since my course isn't easy as it sounds. I won't go clubbing. I rarely do. :)) I will be strict to myself since "I'm the only hope for this family" blah blah. Gaah. Being the youngest is hard. You get a lot of expectations from your parents and even from your other family members. Gaah. I do hope to survive. :)

     I have 5 years. 5 years of life changing experience. 5 years of struggle. And I do hope that when I graduate from school, I would easily have a job at hand. Maybe in the USA. Someday, I will have these in hand.

     I can, and I will. :)